I'm back in that "everything is falling apart" stage, which is the one right before I get the ommph back up to start sorting and deciding on what is next. This time, the falling apart and giving up stage is lasting just a bit longer than I am comfortable with, starting well before my quick vacation and lasting the full week after.
On Sunday I could feel the familar tug to start getting things back in order. I had worked on a small water color and things were still laying around from that project, and the sewing room/studio/mostly storage really needs some attention.
I did find the bags I was working on for a customer and I did get the last one done before our meeting. She was very pleased and gave me the next 50 to do, but instead of setting up, I just added them to a pile.
Also added to the pile is the next order from last week, and the next one after that. I finally got the zipper that I had ordered, so now with 5 orders on my board, I really feel the pull to get busy.
Monday was going to be the day. Twelth night is over and it is time to get to work.
But ahhhh Mother Nature had rest in mind, in the form of that nasty cold flu thing that is going around. Monday was awful. Half a box of kleenex, tons of water and my bed. Even too sick to read. This morning was actually worse, wandering downstairs to feed the cats, I found myself too weak to make it back up the stairs. My bed has been a comfort that is for sure, and I think I am finally beating this thing.
And so maybe tomorrow I'll be able to get to some sewing and get a few things done. What I need to do more than anything is decide on a direction to take my work. I need to decide on a medium to work in that I want to sell and I need to push some limits in my personal work to expand that medium to something coveted and desired. Right now I feel like my work is mediocre at best, and I need that to change.
I think I'd like to limit myself to small pieces that I can put more detail into. I am tired of slamming things together in hopes that they sell, putting little into them to keep the prices low. The new me has some new ideas and the don't include settling for anything less than the best in my art.
